Dichotomy

Peace, where is your presence? I cant see your face.
Have I turned my back, have I walked away.
Your source has withdrawn, but I did not accept.
I'm feeling empty, from my very depths.
I traded cheap comfort to replace your great gift
through my emotions I must now sift

Photoshop creations.

So I mentioned just a moment ago that I had purchased photoshop. Well here are just a few little creations that I came up with. Hope you enjoy!

Update on Life.

So I haven't posted in a while. I wish that I could. One set back is that I don't have access unless I'm at bread co. Seriously, I think these people are sick of seeing me here....all the time. Anyhow, I guess a quick update on my life is....well...there isn't much going on. That seems sad. Well I'm still on the job search ladies and gents. I had a job interview on Teusday at TALX and I'm supposed to hear back from them by the end of the week. We'll see what happens. Man, this "real world" is an intimidating place. Here are a few fun updates. 1) I bought photoshop. It's not the huge all inclusive program, but it works for what I can afford right now. So that is pretty exciting. 2) Speaking of photos I've been having a lot of opportunities to take photos for people. That has been super exciting. One person is wanting maternity photos and the other is wanting photos of her twins that should be here any day now. I've never taken pictures in either department really so it will be a new learning experience. 3) I just recieved my grades in the mail this week and got probably the best grades I've ever had. All A's and B's with a 3.556 gpa. You better believe I'm gonna add that extra 5 & 6 in there. Well that's all I can think of as of now. Hopefully more good news to come soon as well as some photos. Good day to all!

Frustration.

So today I wanted to really focus on God and what He might want to show me or tell me. When I say that it sounds almost like I don't want that any other time. Not the case. There are certain days that you spend extra time in prayer, fasting, ect. When I woke up this morning I had an overwhelming sense of frustration and anger. I don't know where it came from. Well....I guess I do. It became kind of this downward spiral. I was frustrated, then I was angry that I was frustrated, then that just frustrated me more. You get the picture. I think I just realized it. I've been spending more time telling God what's going on with me than listening to what He's trying to say to me. I haven't been spending much time in God's word. I'm ashamed of that. I guess since the times I'm in group studies it is so intense that I'm less likely to study. I'm not sure. I have a lot of excuses, but no good reasons. I just so desire to have a deeply intentional relationship with God and I fail miserably. As I've been learning of the depravity of man, it makes sense why I choose to stray towards my selfish ways. As a Christian, however, I should be clinging to my Savior so tightly. I guess its good to be aware of my helpless state. I just need prayer to look toward a Holy God and be less focused on my situational frustrations. If I'm consumed with my Savior and His people, how could I remain in such a frustrated state. Stumbling, but reaching.

Graduate

Signs it's time to graduate.



...and I did it!